Sorry to hear that about your family! My sister has breast cancer and I know what she is going through. It is awful. My father died of a stroke. I watched him take his last breath. It was awful. I have cousins that worked in the tobacco fields with me as a kid. They have all passed. In my home town I played football with a guy whose younger brother died of Covid. His last words to his wife and kids were "I was wrong and should have gotten the vaccine". My first job was given to me by a very good person who owned chicken houses and he died of Covid. He got it by taking food to a sick friend who had Covid but he did not know he had Covid. My high school friend is a preacher. His wife died of Covid. I talked to him before she died and he told me that he was wrong about the vaccine. There are so many of these stories all over this country. A lot of pain and suffering because people did not get the vaccine. I tell you this to try and help you understand that the the risk of the vaccine is nothing compared to the pain of people dying because of politics. I am certain the vaccine would have saved a few or all of them.